Well, my divorce is finalized, but my house is still not sold which is eating a whole in my budget every month. Oh well, hopefully soon.
To explain, I made the foolish choice about a year ago to buy a house with my now ex wife. We had thought that somehow buying a new house would give us a new perspective on our marriage as well, but I learned this lesson the hard way that problems don't go away unless you confront and deal with them. I had actually asked her if "she was sure it was a good idea to get into a house when we're having problems?" And she said yes. I should have been more adamant about not getting the house, but lesson learned.

Now I'm single and free (except for part of the mortgage until its sold), which I find now is very different. See, I had never been single before - went straight from my parents house to living with her when I was 21. Obviously I have freedoms that I never had before, but of course its harder to do anything because of 1 income. Oh well. At least I have my new puppy Chubbs, he's uber cute - I have posted a pic of him Don't ya just wanna cuddle him? XD

Anyways, Happy Holidays all, make sure you spend it with someone you care about, its what the Holidays are all about.

I have emotional heart issues, and serious ones (I guess when are they not?).

I have been going through a divorce, and a good lady-friend has been helping me through it. I started being friends because I was attracted to her, and now we are great friends and we hang out - A LOT. Here's my issue though. I LOVE HER, or at least I think I love her. No one has ever treated me as well as she, nobody has ever cared this much, nobody has known every little secret about me and STILL stuck around.

I don't want to hurt our friendship, but I REALLY want to be with her - body, heart, mind, and soul. I have told her that I wanted to be more to her than just a friend, but she "has never thought about me in that way". She keeps getting into these bad relationships and ending up breaking up because these guys keep treating her like dirt.

Every time she cries or is upset, it feels like little daggers are stabbing my heart. Every time I hear her voice or see her, my heart lifts. Every time she laughs or smiles at me, I feel actual joy/elation, which I NEVER felt as deeply with ANYONE. I love spending time with her so much its almost ridiculous. I have thought about her sexually a few times, but its not only about that, I love every aspect of her. Is this love?

I REALLY want to tell her that I love her, but she just broke up with yet ANOTHER jerk, and I really doubt that she finds me attractive (why else would I have this dilemma?). I've ALWAYS been the "sweet guy", the "really nice guy", or the "good friend". Why can't I be her "everything"? Why can't she see that I'm the one for her, and that I would only treat her like a princess, and how a lady SHOULD be treated? I SO want to be with her in that capacity, but I don't want to destroy our friendship in the process. Maybe this is one of those "have your cake and eat it too" situations? Am I just asking for pain and misery by staying her friend while I love her (romantically) so much? I am tortured. Any advice? Should I stop seeing her?

Thank you.

Is it me, or did all the admins/designers forget to add the bunnies/rabbits category when putting together the menu system for submitting/browsing art? Do they have something against bunnies for some reason?

ADD THE BUNNIES, OR THEY WILL GNAW OFF YOUR FLESH!! Just kidding, how do we add the bunnies/rabbits category? Do we need a petition? Aren't they like, one of the FIRST furries someone thinks about when they think "furry"? I mean, c'mon, you can't deny the fact that bunnies are hot, cute at least.

Thank you for reading my ramble.